This song was written and recorded just after losing our record contract back in 1990. The song expresses the confusion that I felt, the feelings of betrayal, the inward examination of the extent of how much I was to blame and what if I had done something different.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am outspoken when a wise man would stay silent, which to be brutally honest it is quite normal as like many people in their youth I was idealistic, full of self belief and insensitive to the feelings and needs of others. I made a hell of a lot of bad decisions, but I like to think that the result of this experience has made me a nicer person who is to this day indebted to the good people who were there for me in my many hours of need making sure that I was not alone.

Verse 1

It’s all insane, am I to blame?
What was I thinking of?
I feel ashamed.
Anger inside, eating me alive.
There’s no place to hide.
Will I survive?

Chorus
Alone.. all by myself.
Desperate times come once again..
an unwelcome friend.
Alone.. where is my strenght?
Am I past hope?
Wish it would end.

Verse 2
The gap seemed wide,
between the truth and the lies.
how can I help myself?
when the guilt won’t let me by.
There’s nothing I can say now.
The bridges all have burned down.
I feel alone…

Chorus
Alone.. all by myself.
Desperate times come once again..
an unwelcome friend.
Alone.. where is my strenght?
Am I past hope?
Wish it would end.

Final Verse
It’s all insane, am I to blame?
Why can’t this be a dream?
I’d wake up not to be..
alone

©1990 Words & Music John Robert Hunter